This morning I got up, had a cup of tea, and went for a run. I ran for longer than usual because out of the blue, for no reason I can figure out, my eyes were feeling almost normal the whole time. I can't recall the last time I ran and felt like that. Even when in recent months I have had some good runs, with eyes open, I was always aware of some compensatory tightness in my face or some other movement helping stabilize my eyes. This time, my eyes just felt mostly normal. I say mostly because I did have a moment early in the run (during the first 2 min) when it felt like the spasms might start, but when I relaxed, the feeling receded. (Of course, I try chasing spasms away by relaxing every time I run, but usually it helps only a little or not at all.)
My first reaction when I got home was to try to list all the possible things that might have been different about today. Of course, there were tons of variables. I really have no idea why it was better.
Later in the day, when I was listening to my extended family talk, spasms showed up as usual. But I am still wondering about the run.
Whenever a situation that is usually really hard suddenly isn't, I always think: then things must not be totally broken in my head! And if I can only figure out what is making a difference, I might be able to improve matters. Maybe I am wrong---maybe this was just a slightly more extreme version of a "good" morning. But it was very strange and makes me wonder.
